"In the book of life, the answers aren't in the back."
-Charlie Brown

Friday, December 30, 2011


I'm not going to make "New Year's Resolutions" because by their very nature resolutions are meant to be broken- or at least I always break them so I assume that is why people make them... so they have something to break. I have instead decided to make goals. Goals that just happen to start at the beginning of the year. These goals are mostly to just improve myself so that I can come closer the person I am striving to be. Since it's easier to account to others and easier to keep track of if they are written down here goes....

  • Read my scriptures every day, at the beginning of the day not when I'm half asleep right before bed and not getting any thing from it.
  • Write in my journal every night, even when there is nothing to report.
  • Be more kind in my thoughts and actions
  • Do more service

  • Become more social (this one is gonna be a doosey! I'm not a very social person!)
  • Weight loss goal: lose 30lbs by my 30th birthday and if possible lose 60lbs by next Christmas... that is going BIG though, losing 60lbs would put me at my all time not likely to happen "goal weight." 
  • Be more healthy - I'm not going to "diet" because I'm horrible at dieting but I am going to do my best to make healthier choices and exercise more consistently. (I sorta have to if I want to meet my previous goal)
  • Get my first kiss - I know what you're thinking "WHAT SHE'S NEVER BEEN KISSED? HOW OLD IS SHE?!" I do it too. But I have had some weird issues that I have been working out with my therapist and I think I'm in a better place to be in a relationship and hopefully get that first kiss I've been waiting my whole life for. (No pressure future boy that I will kiss!) So I definitely better get on that "being more social" goal or this may never happen! Plus I'm paranoid about having bad breath and what if I go in for the big kiss and the guy is totally grossed out because I have weird breath?? It's okay Self, you can do it! (Yes, I just gave myself a pep talk.)
  • Go to Disneyland again (though this one is already in the works... I'm gonna have the best 30th birthday EVER!! But that's because if I don't I'm probably going to have a SERIOUS panic attack... 30 is SO old. Not for other people, I just feel like I'm so behind and have a lot of "catching up" to do, it's overwhelming. But not this year, I'm going to be having FUN on my big day!)
So these are my goals. Hopefully this time next year I will be a better person and be able to make more goals to continue to better myself.
Happy New Year!

Thursday, December 22, 2011

Merry Christmas

“ For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish but have everlasting life.” John 3:16

What a beautiful scripture. At this time of year where we give and receive gifts – I always try to remember the most AMAZING gift of all time.  Jesus Christ – our brother, our confidant, our spiritual shoulder to cry on, He REALLY knows our pain and suffering and He is there to help you get where you need to be. He does have all the answers  and we need to remind ourselves to seek those gifts and blessing that he is ready and willing to give to us if we just ask. Sorta like Santa, I suppose. Sit on his lap, tell him what you want or need and he’ll see what he can do.
The first part of the scripture reminds me of what the meaning of life is. “For God so loved the world…”  GOD LOVES US. Each and every one of us. I was trying to teach my little niece about our puppy. Sometimes he chews on their toys or shoes or eats  all of my socks and that doesn’t make him a bad puppy, just a puppy trying to learn and makes mistakes a long the way and that does not change the love we have for the puppy. That is what we as humans need to remember that we are good people just trying to learn and making mistakes a long the way. But what is promised to us is that GOD LOVES US, JESUS CHRIST LOVES US and if we can embrace that; do what we can to do what is right we can feel Their love.  And as we find ourselves feeling the love of Christ and the knowledge that God really loves us, enough to send his only Son to die for us so we can all live again, we find ourselves sharing that love with others. 
Love – that is what I learn each Christmas.  To really love others and look at them through God’s eyes and see their potential and the love he has there for that person, it makes it so much easier to love others – even when we don’t like them too much. It also helps me to remember to accept that love. That is the hardest part of all. I need to see myself through God’s eyes and see his love for me and all of my potential.
So my message to you is to remember the reason for the season and to just love. 
All my love to you,
P.S. I absolutely adore this video, I may have posted this previously but thought watching it again couldn't possible hurt anyone. Enjoy.

Saturday, December 17, 2011

Ruffle Cake

My mom makes cakes (wedding, birthday, just because it's Wednesday, ect) and she is AMAZING at it! She usually lets me tag a long and I carry stuff and assist with different things but on this cake she actually LET me do something!! Woot woot!! This was a cake for a friend of mom's and she wanted us to try this new cake style.  I got to do the ruffling of the fondant and I thought that was a pretty good deal until we had to do it. About half-way through the cake I was about done. It was 2 a.m. and my hands were blistered and TIRED but I persevered thanks to my mom's cheering and encouragement and by 3:30 a.m. we were finally DONE!! We delivered it today but they couple didn't have the flowers there yet so we didn't get any pictures with the flowers but we're hoping the gal sends us some of the FINAL final cake. So here are the pictures we do have: